Emojis

I was chatting with one of my connects in my circle. I cannot say that we are friends yet. But we share many common grounds, and lot of things to talk. While chatting on whatsapp, she sent an emoji, which winked at me.  I was using my desktop to chat. My girls were standing next to me, watching me chat.  When the emoji popped on the screen, the girls exclaimed, 'wow... we never knew' with a face that said, you are old for an emoji but, ok we are watching. 

For me, the emojis ☺are just the emotions I cant express while I type, to the person on the other end.  Recently, my emotions went on a roller coaster ride for sometime. Frequently, I wondered why my voice was not heard at all.  On many instances, I audibly asked those who ignored my voice.  When they showed indifference, I became restless. People around me, those who stood with me, asked me to calm down.  I felt small with raging emotions inside me. I could not contain myself.  Am I so immature, that I am not able to handle my emotions well? 

Zechariah 1:1-6, struck me hard. The Lord calls his people to respond to Him. We fail Him miserably. And I have failed Him many times. He has been gentle with me. Yet He is pained when He asks me the question, Why would you not listen or pay attention to me? 

In the eighth month of the second year of Darius, the word of the Lord came to the prophet Zechariah son of Berekiah, the son of Iddo: “The Lord was very angry with your ancestors. Therefore tell the people: This is what the Lord Almighty says: ‘Return to me,’ declares the Lord Almighty, ‘and I will return to you,’ says the Lord Almighty. Do not be like your ancestors, to whom the earlier prophets proclaimed: This is what the Lord Almighty says: ‘Turn from your evil ways and your evil practices.’ But they would not listen or pay attention to me, declares the Lord. Where are your ancestors now? And the prophets, do they live forever? But did not my words and my decrees, which I commanded my servants the prophets, overtake your ancestors?

I seek His forgiveness. 

I also know that the Lord who calls me to come to Him, knows my pain, when my voice goes unheard. He comforts me and says, I am with you and I hear you. 

I can now relate to Hagar, who met the God, Who sees!